How do I explain what I do not have the words for? How do I get you to understand what I cannot explain? I totally understand your situation and position. Logically, I know you have to do what you believe God has instructed you to do and I wouldn't ever want to distract you from that...logically. Emotionally? That's always the catch, isn't it? Emotionally, my head is driving me nuts with questions, worries, anger...so many more. The timing. The timing is always so negatively intense. "Wow. That was intense" you said. Then, less than 24 hours later, everything has to stop, again. How many times has it happened just like that? At least twice. That's your side. Then there's my side. I've been moving slow on this ride. I've been thrown from the air too many times not to use such caution. I've tried to "take things as they come" and not wonder about the what ifs and why nots. I've slowly allowed myself to become more comfortable a...