It wasn't the best morning but it would get worse. My birthday doesn't mean very much to me. I don't feel special. I don't ask for things. 2015 & 2016 were good for my birthday. A week at the beach with my mom. No responsibilities, just relaxing and fun all week. The next year, a full week in Ireland. That will be tough to ever beat! 2017, father's day fell on my birthday without my daddy being here. 2018, I spend my birthday in the ICU watching someone very dear to me leave this life and enter eternity. I remember thinking, I just want today to be easy. I didn't want the stress that comes from my marriage to intrude. I didn't want the stress of my work situation to be visible. I didn't want any drama or stress to darken my day. I remember feeling good as I got out of the shower. My head was in a good place as I stepped into my room. I picked up my phone and saw I had missed a call and thought, how sweet, she called to say happy birthday. I decid...