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What is Your Worth

 Today, I am feeling pretty priceless (at least so far this morning). Normally, I feel closer to worthless. I’m comfortable there, close to worthless, because we are often most comfortable in what we most know. I’ve been in many situations at many different points of my life in which I was informed and often reminded that my worth was not only below their own, but that I wasn’t worth much in my own right. 

I have often looked in the very wrong places in order to establish my worth. Sex, drinking, destructive behaviors....all just solidified what others had been saying, I wasn’t worth much. This just makes depression so much darker, anxiety so much more active...it’s just not a good result at all. However, I have been hearing some things lately that I never really heard before (had been said but I just didn’t receive it as applying to myself) that I am really listening to and for now. I do not believe in coincidences at all...I believe fully that EVERYTHING happens for a specific reason, no matter how small of a detail it may be. 

So, I started hearing, at a Sunday Church Service at a church I hadn’t been to before, that my worth was in God and God alone. That He determined eons ago that I was worth making and programming and loving. That I was in fact, worth the time and effort to create me in such minute detail that He knows how many hairs are on my head at any given stage of my life. My worth was not set by man or woman or situation or experience. My worth was determined before my physical body was ever formed. I have been seeing/hearing confirmation of this in so many ways recently. I have had someone apologize for years of wrong doing, having requested my forgiveness and explained that they were the one wrong and that I was amazing. I have had someone tell me, almost daily, how sweet and beautiful and amazing they believe me to be. I have had restored relationships tell me how they wished they had never lost any time with me because of how wonderful or loving or whatever they believe me to be.

 Have  had someone tell me over and over just how much my worth really is and what they truly think of me.I have been listening to and taking heed to all that I have seen regarding my worth recently. I have decided to believe this about myself. I have decided that I am worth know and loving and liking and wanting . I have decided that I am unwilling to accept anything less that my definition of worth as was given to me by God as my creator. My worth is immeasurable and deserves to be acknowledged. I deserve to be acknowledged and loved and treasured. I will not accept people to be important to my life if they do not acknowledge my worth to be at least as much as their very own. 


All my love, Me

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