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She bends but she's breakable

 She feels everything you don't say but she doesn't trust her feelings or instincts anymore. Too many people have misused her and confused her feelings and instincts to the point that she needs words and actions in order to confirm one or the other.

People say not to trust words trust actions but when you are in her world, you can see how your actions confuse her. She needs words and actions in order to prove the reality.

She feels everything so deeply that the slightest cut goes deep into her heart. You have to be careful with her, she could bleed out right in front of you. When she loves, she loves to the point of pain every time you walk away or hang up the phone. A deep physical pain that brings tears to her eyes.

As deeply as she loves, she hurts. Be careful with her, a scratch to you is a cut too deep for stitches to her.

She doesn't NEED anyone, she put an end to that decades ago. But you created within her a need so deep that she is always waiting for the next text, call or visit. She's impatient, she's not ok with waiting, it takes too long. 

She's flexible, bending in compromise to keep you happy. Be careful, it'll be easy to bend her into a person different than who she really is and that person is who you love.

She feels everything as though it has happened directly to her so don't allow her to watch too much news, it'll consume her. Sometimes others need her too much and she doesn't know how to break free and say no because she cares so deeply. Don't punish her, take her away from the situation.

When she's unable to speak for herself, speak for her, don't condemn her. She's unable to speak up to you as well, protect her even from yourself. Shield and protect her but don't smother her flame. When it burns out, she's lost and can't find her way.

Love her but love her carefully and intentionally. You will never have experienced love for you as deep as you will receive from her, just be open to receive it. 

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